Current state

I don’t know about all of you but this Covid19 situation has me feeling all the emotions. It’s not the virus itself, it is the amount of unknown.

When I was younger, my dad and I would watch The Wonder Years. At the end of almost every episode I would have tears in my eyes as I recognized we were watching our lives. The end of every school year, moving, transition of all kinds hits me right in the feels. As I went to Brayden’s school yesterday to pick up a Chromebook for him to finish the school year on I walked back to my car crying. I was crying for the loss of time my children have to live their lives as they had been, the loss of work for the teachers, and the end of things we knew as everyday life.

I tend to be an emotional person as it is (believe it or not) and this world change has taken it to a whole new level. I want to run with my friends, but I want to abide bay the rules I should be following. I want to go to Home Depot and buy all the things, so I don’t go crazy during this quarantine period, but don’t want to risk exposure. All the feelings at once.

I am going to choose to use this time to connect with my children and learn to be with myself. This will be a testimony to what we are capable of overcoming.

I know we are all aware of the struggles we are facing, but make sure you understand how much harder some people have it right now than others. If I am struggling through this, I am painfully aware of how much those with mental health concerns, domestic violence situations, and all around struggles ae suffering to a whole new level. Please pray, or if that is not your thing, focus your positive thoughts towards these people.

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